Dear “X”

Do I need to work so hard for you to notice me?
Remember how you used to call me in the middle of the night to tell me that you missed me but I was just a block away from you? Or when you would send me texts in the morning and afternoon just to tell me that I am on your mind? Wait, remember the day you said you loved me? What happened to all that? Did it go away with the New Year, out with the old and in with the new and I happened to be old news now.

I am saddened by the fact that I look at you every day and wonder what happened to us. We used to talk. I would pour my heart and your ears were always there to listen to me. You were always there for me. I am sitting in my room and all I think about is how you were supposed to be my date. You know what I am doing? I am looking through the list of people who are up for Valentine’s Day date auction. I am hoping that I can be the highest bidder and spend the evening with you. I know it wont be like old times. The only difference will be that I am going to be in fancy clothes and talking to the person I really care about like I am just some stranger.

I just want to reconnect with you. That is all I am asking for. I shy away each time I see you looking at me in the dinning hall. I change my path each time I see you coming my way. It never used to be like this. We both have turned in to strangers. My heart breaks into pieces when I see you talking to “that person.” You seem to comfortable around this person, you laugh at their jokes like you are being paid to laugh at their jokes. You look deeply into their eyes like you are searching deep into their soul and that is how you used to be with me. In a space of a week you only utter one word and that is “hi”. Our sixteen hour long conversations have turned into one word greetings. On Valentines Day, I am going to wear that chain you got me for Christmas, I hope it will remind you of us.

Your Broken Hearted Lover

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